Am I Okay?

I have been asked this question a lot lately. I found out I have menorrhagia with dysfunctional uterine bleeding. I am not able to have any more kids. It was so devastating to find out. But, at the same time, it was nice to know what was going on with my body. I have to have surgery this Wednesday where they are going to do a endometrial ablation treatment, and a tubal ligation. I have such good friends and family, and everyone keeps asking if I'm okay. I always say yes with a smile, but I'm not always truthful. It builds up like a volcano, and then spills out when I've reached my limit. Usually the eruption occurs at my sweet Jon. I will tell him how unfair I think it is, that we both wanted a big family, and how I can't. I will get frustrated thinking that I could have learned my lessons through different avenues. But once I start to cool down, the reality hits me. There are so many people who have it so much worse than me. I know women who have this problem that have not been able to have any kids at all. My problem can be helped, and I'm not going to suffer from it like people with other diseases. I was able to give birth twice. When I was getting my pre-op tests done, the nurse asked me if I was pregnant before I went to get my x-ray. I laughed and told her that I wished. She looked at my paperwork, and said "Oh, I am so sorry. Were you able to have any kids?" When I told her I had two, she smiled and said, "Okay, you are okay then." I thought about that for awhile. She is right. Just because it hasn't turned out the way I thought it should, it turned out the way it was supposed to. I don't know the reason for it yet, but I'm sure in time I will. I am so blessed to have two healthy children, and an incredible husband, who I love more than anything in the world. So in answer to the above question, yes, I am okay, and I am very, very blessed.